Life right now

Life is tough right now. This is the time in life I have to put on my big girl panties and suck it up and deal with everything difficult right now. There is so much going on and I miss my husband so much already (even though he has only been gone a week and a half and I saw him this week and see him again next weekend).

The hardest part of all of this will be pretty much everything up until Xander and I are out in Denver permanently. I have so much to do and so little time and very little help and it is stressing me so much. I am tired and sick and the stress is causing me to break out on my face which makes me feel ugly. I feel like I am so tired but have so much on my mind that I can't fall asleep.

The to do list is endless and I have been working on it for a week and a half already! When will it end? I was hoping to get the house on the market tomorrow but that is clearly not happening. The next Monday will just have to do unless by some miracle I can get the 10,000 things that still need to be done to the house done in the next three days. I still have to get a bunch of cleaning done (though a lot is already done), get the carpets cleaned and the ceiling painted and then get the house staged so it looks as close to perfect as possible. I have been lucky enough to have the help of my parent and my in laws so far and they have helped me a ton!

The next big challenge is actually selling the house. That is why I am running around like a chicken with my head cut off trying to get stuff done. I am one of those people that wants my house just perfect before listing it because I am hoping that will help it sell fast and for top dollar. I really want to it to sell in the first 30 days and be done with it! Todd's company buys it from us if it doesn't sell after 60 days, but I don't want to get to that point. I hope we have interest right away and I think we will if the realtor words the listing right. Our house has a lot going for it and I think it will attract a good buyer.

Once the house is on the market, my next huge task is finding a job. I have done some looking but have only applied for one job so far. I haven't had any time to apply! Once the house is listed, I am going to try to spend 2-3 hours every night researching and applying for jobs. I have to find one! We won't be able to buy a house in Denver right away if I don't. A lot of pressure. Luckily, Todd's company pays for a consultant to help me find a job. I'm just hoping something will come out of it. It will be really hard to find a job in another state - I supposed I will have to head out there for a few interviews. That will not be fun.

Then the next task after the above mentioned two is finding a new house in Denver. This is all contingent upon me finding a job like I said. If I don't, we will be renters for a while. I am not looking forward to moving all of our stuff out there to a storage unit and then to a house within a year or so. That would suck! Hopefully everything just falls into place.

I am trying to take it one day at a time and it is hard. Each day goes by so fast and I don't feel like I get as much done as I need to. All I can do is keep trying and hope for the best. I really miss my husband and hate sleeping alone at night and I know Xander misses his dad too! He has been pretty good overall through this process, but he makes more messes than I can keep up with! That is going to be the biggest challenge - keeping up with him and keeping the house in showing condition all the time. You never know when someone will want to see your house so it has to be perfect at all times! I am hoping that it sells fast too because once the papers are signed, I won't be quite as crazy about keeping it clean to show.

Anyway, that is all I have for now. I have to go get the laundry and get to bed - it is going to be another long week of trying to get stuff done!